I hate looking back at whatâ€™s happened,
I hate seeing you & wanting to talk,
I hate it when you look at me like you have something to say,
I hate being reminded of you by every song that I listen to,
I hate seeing other couples loved up & thinking of what we could have had,
I hate that you didnâ€™t give me a chance to prove how much I love you,
I hate how you through it all away,
Though itâ€™s still not too late, after everything youâ€™ve put me through,
Baby if you could only see Iâ€™d be the luckiest girl in the world.
If I had you by my side as a friend let alone anything else,
I would have done anything to have that,
I would have fought away the world to be with you if you were willing to take me, who am I fooling?
I hate that I wasnâ€™t even with you & you still broke my heart.
I never had you yet I feel as though I have lost you forever.
Iâ€™m slowly fading away, slowly dying,
& what hurts the most is that you know youâ€™re killing me,
But youâ€™re still letting me die, you could have saved me.
Baby why canâ€™t you see what you mean to me,
Why canâ€™t you see that Iâ€™m so weak without you?
Why canâ€™t you see that when you smile you make my day?
When you look away I feel the pain from deep inside,
I know weâ€™ll never be anything,
Because you donâ€™t want it that way,
But if by Allah you could just be a friend to me,
I wouldnâ€™t ask for anything more from this world.
I wouldnâ€™t ask anything more of you,
Just for once â€œJessâ€, please just try and understand,
Thereâ€™s girl loves you with all her heart,
Please just this once, donâ€™t break me.
Donâ€™t make me cry myself to sleep tonight,
Keep me awake smiling thinking of you.
Just this once, reply to my text knowing its me texting you,
Just this once smile at me when you see me,
I may not get a chance like this again,
You might go and Iâ€™ll always look back with hurt,
Please change that to me looking back knowing you wanted to be my friend,
You know youâ€™re special to me but youâ€™re still letting it go.
Just this once Iâ€™m asking you to be my friend thatâ€™s all Iâ€™m asking,
I need a friend right now, I need you,
My eyes are tired of crying,
My heart is tired of hurting
& my mind is tired of thinking.
I canâ€™t go on like this,
Its just as painful if not more painful than knowing you donâ€™t feel the same.
Iâ€™m ill; youâ€™re my biggest weakness,
Baby if only you could see me now,
I just wonder if youâ€™d think different,
Or if youâ€™d just laugh – just like the world does…
This is the last chance Iâ€™m giving you,
This is the last chance you have to mend my broken heart,
The last chance you have to make me smile, please do,
Let me remember you as the one that made me smile and took away my pain,
Donâ€™t allow me to look back thinking you were the one that made me cry,
The one that put a stop to my life,
The one reason to why I took my life.
….I love you, but you donâ€™t care….
If you donâ€™t fix things now,
Then Iâ€™ve lost you forever,
& if I loose you forever,
Life wouldnâ€™t be worth living anymore,
All I want to do is die in your arms….